To be honest, writing this post scares me a little bit. It has to do with some of my core beliefs and, as a recovering people-pleaser, I don't want it to be a turn-off. Some of it may be little woo woo......you have been warned.
I believe that we are all made up of energy and are all connected. I believe our thoughts, words and actions have power. I believe we work in tandem with the Universe/God/Spirit to create our reality. I believe that there is enough for everyone, that the Universe is incredibly abundant, and that I will receive as much prosperity and abundance as I want/need/can handle. (This last part is the tricky one because I'm the one standing in my way.)
The Husband and I want to buy a multi-family residential complex that will support us while we spend a year in Europe. After that, our plan is to move to Colorado. And, oh yeah, I want to be a successful writer. Big stuff!
I've seen how the Universe conspires on our behalf, bringing us our highest and best in all situations. The Husband and I dated several years ago. We loved each other, but the timing wasn't right, and we parted ways. A number of years passed before we reconnected, and in that time, we worked out some personal kinks and became a much better fit. But there were other benefits as well, especially on The Husband's end. As I look back on that time, I see that we were both exactly where we were supposed to be, doing exactly what we were supposed to be doing, and several other people benefited as well. When the time was right, we found each other again (actually The Husband found me; I had stalked him unsuccessfully for years). God's timing is perfect.
It's not my job to figure out how it works; I just have to do my part: visualizing the end result, acting "as if" it has already occurred, and expressing gratitude for all of it.
The end result for us is a mid-sized apartment complex (100+ units), which should provide enough income for our dreams of a year in Europe and a home in Colorado. I don't have to determine which complex it is, or how it will manifest, although there is a complex we've had our eye on that will be auctioned off in about a month. This may not be "the one" but it's a good representation. And, quite honestly, it would truly be a miracle if we win it. My part (other than due diligence) is to talk about it and think about it as if it's already ours, to see every detail and feel the excitement. My prayer is "bless it or block it" and, then I release any attachment to it, and let the Universe work its magic. I trust that if this particular complex isn't meant for us, something better will come along.
Another project on the list is my novel. It should be out before the end of the year, and I would love, love, love to get into as many hands as possible. It's about connecting with students through the power of letters, and I think every teacher could (and should) use this tool in their classroom. I have more fears connected with this dream, I believe, because it's more personal. I lived it for several years, then wrote a book about it (a fictional version). Needless to say, it's dear to my heart, and I have a difficult time letting go of my attachment to it. But, again, I trust that it will find its way into the hands of those who need it most.
I don't believe the Universe wants me to settle. I think God wants incredible success for me, but sometimes I get in my way. Maybe I'm afraid to hope/wish/dream for the big stuff. I mean, really big.......best-seller big. I think there's a part of me that believes I'm not worthy. (Actually, this was the pervasive view of myself for years, so I'm better than I used to be.) It also scares the shit outta me to write about this here. What if I fail? What if the right business doesn't show up? What if I only sell twenty-five books.....all to family and friends? What if I never leave Texas either to travel or live? The nay-sayers will jump for joy that I was wrong, and the believers will say I did it wrong.
But the "what ifs" don't matter. And it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks or says. It's about me.....taking the risk.....testing my faith.....doing my part......trusting.....and, most of all, saying "thank you!"
Have you ever put it all out there? What happened?
Have you been there?